So… I got a call. It was my ex who also happens to be a close personal friend. He said he needed a women’s perspective. He has recently come out of a fling with a women a few years older than him, Emily. He is still madly in love with her. Two weeks ago Emily dropped my ex to get back with her ex Marc. Obviously, my ex was absolutely devastated and heartbroken. Now however, Emily has called him, she is pregnant and he is responsible for the sperm that led to the pregnancy. She is confused by whether to stay with her new old boyfriend (Marc) and either having the baby with him with my ex being a solo father, terminating the pregnancy or opposite leaving Marc and getting back together with my ex, being a happy nuclear family. I just do not know how to help in this situation. I do have a uterus but I also use contraception so have never been in such a dilemma (I know it can still happen on it but they were risking it…… I am not judging…. obviously). On one side it is her body so it is ultimately her decision. No question about that. But on the other hand my ex and friend is ridiculously in love and now in limbo again hoping to be picked and to be a father.

It is weird. I feel for all involved. And then selfishly I am feeling weird as well. I do hope he is going to be a father no matter the love triangle but I guess it is always strange when someone you once thought might be the person you eventually was going to have babies with (way back when we were together 8 years ago so no feelings stuck) is now involved in a pregnancy. That call sort of took my breath away. So now I will drink red wine as my uterus is empty as the state of Lebanon’s bank account. And I will make a pie will loads of cheese to forget feeling weird and sorry for a situation I am in no way involved

For the pie you will need:

• shortcrust pastry dough
• thawed frozen spinach
• 100-200 grams of your fav blue cheese (for me Gorgonzola)
• 4 eggs
• 3 deciliters sour cream or Greek yogurt
• sundried tomatoes
• salt and peber
• as much wine as your heart needs

Making the pie:

• Make your dough or lay out bought dough in a form. I bought it. Cannot be bothered with making stuff from scratch when all I can think of is starting a blog and drinking wine.
• Bake the dough at 190 degrees Celsius for 5-10 min.
• Mix eggs, sour cream, chopped tomatoes, spinach, half of the cheese, salt and peber in a bowl.
• Take out the pie form with the pre-baked dough and pour your heart and the spinach mix in the pie. Lay the other half of the cheese on top.
• Bake the pie for around 30-40 min depending on your oven.
• Drink a glass of wine while waiting for it to cool afterwards.